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Getty imagesFormer scotland minister Nikola Sturgeon has described his arrest by the police investigating the finance of the SNP by the police.
Sturgeon has described its upcoming memoirs as part of the operation branchform in an extract by detectives that have been published in the Times.
Sturgeon also wrote about his “completely mistrust” about the police, raiding the house shared with her then husband Peter Murrel in April 2023.
Somewhere else in extracts, the former SNP leader has described the pain of miscarriage suffering and determines her views on sexuality, which she says that she does not believe binary.
Sturgeon writes that she was in bed when her husband responded to the door to police officers around 07:00 pm on 5 April 2023.
“It was completely with a feeling of mistrust that I realized that the police was in my house, that she had a warrant to arrest my husband and search the house,” she writes.
“I was in despair, struggling to understand what happened.”
The sturgeon was arrested in June 2023. She was told in March this year that she would not take any further action and she was no longer suspicious.
Her husband, former SNP chief executive Peter Murrail was accused of embezzlement in April 2024.
The couple announced that they were separating earlier this year.
Sturgeon said that during the period between the raids on her home in April 2023, she felt as if she felt as if she had fallen into the plot of a diastopian novel. “
When he was arrested, she was: “Fearful and destroyed, although there was a strange relief. At least the order of waiting was over.
“Sunday, June 11 was the worst day of my life. The police is being arrested and questioned by an experience that I am not sure I will end anytime.
“When I finally left the police station, late that afternoon, I was mentally in a bad position. I went to a friend’s house in the northeast of Scotland and stayed for a week.”
He said that the day he was informed that no action would be taken against him, one day the day Mr. Murrail appeared in court again, “was a day of deep mixed feelings”.
“A sense of relief, and release, was heavy,” she writes.
Sturgeon also talks in detail about his experience of being pregnant and suffering from miscarriage.
She said that she was never longing for a child, but her husband wanted to become a strict father.
When she came to know that she was pregnant, she writes, “Peter was a paramanand. I wanted to be. I told her that I was. But – and I still feel very guilty about it – I was deeply disputed.
“My stupid, work-luxurious mind could not have been worse in the mind. With the Scottish election, I will be pregnant for six months. Now it could be difficult to believe, but in 2010 it was not clear how voters would react to a heavy pregnant candidate,” she writes.
Sturgeon has written about the guilt that he felt about being disputed about pregnancy and the guilt that now feels after abortion.
“Later, I will feel the most guilty that it was the days I wanted that I was not pregnant. Still I have a part who sees what happened as my punishment for her,” she writes.
She continues to work “constant pain, the most painful pain, which I have ever experienced” and feeling “heartbroken” about disadvantages.
Sturgeon says that she was convinced that the child would be a girl named Isla, writing: “I have a deep regret over not getting a chance to become a mother of Isla.
“It may not understand, but he feels real. And I know that I will mourn him for the rest of my life.”
The former first minister also addressed rumors about her sexuality, especially a baseless claim that she was having a relationship with a woman French diplomat.
“There were slightly different versions of the story, but the constant topic seemed that I was circling a tadak,” she writes.
“In a variant of the story, there was a violent encounter between us, including an iron at the Balmoral Hotel in Edinburgh.
Sturgeon writes that she usually ignored such wild stories “from the deepest holiday of social media”, but it was being discussed by his neighbors, family and friends.
She greatly describes social media and online comments as being operated by homophobia.
“For many of them,” lesbian “and” gay “mean as an insult. However, about the fact that I was being lied under my skin, the nature of humiliation was the water in itself from the back of a duck,” she writes.
“Long -term relationships with men have calculated more than thirty years of my life, but I have never considered sexuality, my own, to be binary. Also, sexual relations should be private matters.”
It will be clearly published on Thursday 14 August.
